This time I want to share with you musical fragments of ancestral jam sessions that I was gifted to hold with my now dear friends Sieger Baljon and Arnoud Rigter. Thanks to their beautiful souls, and thanks to our ancestors for bringing us together!
I was standing today on a French countryside highway, with a cold nose, wet feet, and sore shoulders, holding a carton in my hand stating “Rennes”. I was disheartened from the presumably two hundredth rejection during three hours attempt to find a lift.
Let’s talk today about the principle of play. What does it mean to play with life, and how do we do that? As the Dutch cultural theorist Johan Huizinga suggested, play is by no means a facile undertaking. Quite the contrary. Remember when children are playing. They have fun and are super serious at the same time. They draw the game with great gravitas into their present physical reality. There are two cards in the Tarot that have an interesting relationship to the principle of play and to each other. Some read the fool and the hanged man as one and the same figure, though, depicted in two different moments in life. When we look at the iconography of the Rider-Waite Tarot and the Tarot de Marseille, we see that their physiques indeed look similar to each other. But one is depicted as a jolly person embarking enthusiastically and recklessly on their new journey, whilst the other one is presented as a human hung with one leg on a tree, with tied hands, unable to unhook himself.
My traveler’s heart is filled with joy when I move through new lands with my tent. The earth invites me on its soft and soulful grasses for a lulling night’s sleep, and the rains allow me to travel even slower. As I am on my road in the Swedish forests, with no internet and no electricity, and have found a surprising stop at a coffee shop, this post shall be a quick hello from me and my ancestors.
As with any emotion, guilt, is information, pointing us to an issue we need to become aware of. It’s an insight that helps us to see our wrongdoing and enables making amends. Sometimes, though, the feeling of guilt is not so easily trackable to its causation. In some cases, it may also seem irrationally disproportional to the reason that caused us to feel that way.
Today I want to share with you an old Georgian folk tale, that, to me, talks about how we are not singular beings but are moved by bigger forces that influence us on a collective level. I was delighted to find this parable, and I’m excited to offer it here to you.
Let’s talk about the newborn’s grief. We are collectively going through major shifts, having left one big chapter behind us, and started a new one. All the desires and dreams, that lit in our chests in the later years, are ready to take form. Now, as the New has finally arrived, the shapes of our desires have space for their next stage, space to get embodied.
Change comes in waves, sure. But there are moments when the realization that the change has truly come, that we have passed the threshold for sure, is fiercely obvious, at once. We’ve made it. It seemed as if the nine months of gestation would never end. But here we are. A quiver of relief washes over the body, and then a cry follows. The tears won’t end, the mouth is widely open, wrinkles encircle the face. Like a newborn baby at its first cry.
Dreams are my favorite thing in life. I reach my arms far out to touch them. Just like, when I see a rainbow in a wet landscape after the sun kissed rain. My immediate reaction is to touch it. If I’m in a car, I always ask, can you please ride through it? Let’s ride through the rainbow’s portal! But it seems to stay on the horizon. Further away from my arm’s length.
Oh no, it’s that time again. A highlighted Pluto phase, activated by the celestial movements in the heavens. On our recent eclipsing new moon, on the 30 April, Pluto was stationary, getting ready to turn retrograde. In my natal chart, the new moon placement additionally hit an exact opposition to my natal Pluto. Nooo! Drowning noises. This post will be a bit time-bound, and astrological. For those of you, who do experience Plutonian stuff in your lives overall, it still may be of interest.
Why is it so hard to leave the old behind, even when we know, that we are leaving for the better? Even when we know that the path that’s calling us, is the one that we’ve been praying for all along. At last, the prayers have been heard, and here it is, just around the corner, now it is time to embark on it and step beyond that corner, knowing that the path behind will vanish just like sand hills in a wind.